I'm gonna get a little personal here, and I hope that's o.k. Don't worry, the deals will still come, but I just feel like I need to process my thoughts.
I've been having trouble with thoughts of Chloe's accident. I don't know why sometimes it's so hard for me to get past it, but it is.
We recently learned of a death of one of my husband's high-school friends father. He fell off a ladder and landed right on his head. He lived for a week after the accident, but he did pass on Saturday. And I'm thinking that's why my mind is going where it is.
My thoughts immediately feel so bad for this family and what they have to go through. But then, selfishly, they turn to "that could've been Chloe."
Yesterday, as I was preparing dinner, I relived the accident in my head, which, unfortunately, I do quite often. I couldn't stop sobbing. I thought about how awful it was for my husband to find her unconscious with blood coming out of her mouth and nose. How scary that had to have been for him. Ryan saw me crying, and we started to talk about it. He, of course, reminded me that she is FINE! She was actually playing outside on the swing-set when this was going on, so we both stood there and watched her swing. What an awesome sight to see now!
I know that this is just Satan trying to find a crack to steal my joy, but I'm not gonna let him! The Lord performed a miracle in our little girl, and I'm going to keep shouting it from the rooftops!
Anyway, to make a long story short, and the actual reason of my post. {I sure can ramble, can't I?}
I just opened my e-mail a few minutes ago, and received this e-mail from Chloe, I couldn't help but cry...again...but tears of joy, cause my baby is o.k.! Thank you Jesus that she is o.k.!
"hi mom chak your e-mail every day win i am at school OK OK plesce bye bye"
I love that little girl with everything in me.
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